I wonder

Billy: Love will always be wasted on you, Ally, you'll always be unhappy, that's why I left ! (pause and tone goes down) I wasn't gonna waste...
Ally: Love is wasted on me ?
Billy: Yes. It is.
Ally (crying): Umm...
Billy: You may go through your good times, dance with your unicorns, but we both know the place you'll always go back to though, and I don't want... If we stayed together... You don't give yourself credit for how strong you are, I couldn't have pulled out of your world, you would have pulled me into yours.
Ally: Do you... Do you really think that ?
Billy: Yes.

I wonder sometimes if I really am Ally McBeal... I hope not. Are you Billy? Maybe in this situation. But without the dying and the penis...

Enjoying eating again is going to be hard. I do not crave anything. I do not have hunger. I have sadness. But one thing I want more than anything else is to be clean, free from this shroud. I want to get through and see the light...

I still feel lost, but with you around I feel... less lost.

how to describe something I will not name

where's the fast forward button? guess I fill this old empty space with meaninglessness and anything else I can get my hands on...

however, breaking out of my strong disdain for emotions, food, and happiness will be an adventure in itself. It's hard to see through the blackness of a storm, but I am fighting to get through this...

They say it is better to have loved and lost than to not love at all and even though my heart is completely broken, I have to say I agree...

...but I wish I never lost it.

"you said move on where do I go?"

dearest, you'll be better off without me. dearest, I promise you this, I will be okay, too. dearest, do not worry, do not feel obligated to me because of my poor health. dearest, be happy, be anger free, be free of me. dearest, nothing pains me more, but I want what is best for you. dearest, maybe in the long run, we could be happy. but dearest, you're still angry, and we have hurt each other way too much right now. dearest, the advice I was given, I must take. dearest, I will always love you...

it is so hard not to call you or talk to you, but I know this is what you want...

Azure Ray - Across the ocean

fcuk.

yes, it is true, I am undeserving of you, and everything you are and have to offer. Don't ask me how I know this for certain, because I am too ashamed to say.

I have so much I want to tell you but maybe it is best I don't say a damn thing.

I want to forget...

maybe I should try it again...