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Occasionally I will be able to produce words. It is quite interesting, actually, to see what I eventually write down, or type, especially when it is 230 in the morning. Thank the Lord though, because I have a day off tomorrow, or technically today. I have to design my tattoo, clean up my bedroom, and figure out what I am going to do for the rest of the day. I part of me wants to stay above the surface on this entry, don't ask me why because I couldn't answer that for you.

My eyes are growing weary. I feel that I am using the last of my energy for today just trying to hold them open. I am sure though that keeping them open will benefit me, even if I don't see it just yet.

Sometimes I have no idea who I even am, which could work out for me, except I hate having an identity crisis. Who really likes those, anyway?

Our two bodies, though they were so close together, were not the source of the horrible heat. I felt as though I really was going to pass out, I do need more energy, I will not lie. I wish I could break free, and this summer is going to make or break me. I keep getting really hot, and I do not like it. Although, we did fit nicely, I haven't fit like that in awhile. It is refreshing, and yes, it did take my mind off of the usual stuff. I don't want to worry you though.

This. This new, wonderful, yet scary feeling. I cannot claim you yet, but I have a slight feeling what is going on here. I do like it, along with you. I am scared though. I still don;t know what I am going to do about this, but I can bet you a large amount of money that I will screw myself over.

Basically, to put this in the shortest amount of words possible, I have no idea what I am thinking/feeling right now.
All I know, is that I want to get healthy, happy, and better in general.