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disbelief. Entirely? Well, yes.

nausea. Total. Maybe from the beans? Why not.

Stripped? Should I? Sometimes I fall off my rocker and I actually write more than I should. I feel full, so I guess I should let some out. Just a little bit.

Work. Oh God, work. I don't even want to go. I cannot believe the other night. Stop touching me. I hate you. You are disgusting. I am THAT good though. You have no idea what you are messing with my dear. No idea.

Or maybe I shouldn't be so mean... I am a really nice girl.

I just watched the biography on Heath Ledger. I am not too sure why I would do that to myself. It sure got me thinking though. I really would love to be portraying different people. Hahaha, to put it in a blunt way: I would love to be an actor. So I guess I am going to start attempting to get myself out there. I cannot be intimidated by anyone or anything. I'll tell you, it might be good to stay at my job then because then I can practice not being intimidated by people at my job.

My job.... yes, my job.

Yes, today, I was contemplating the inevitable. Just like I do every single day. I am going to turn that energy into something positve though.

Just registered for my last class. My schedule is looking like this (or at least this is what I would want):

Monday 3pm- close
Tuesday class from 10 till 7pm
Wednesday class from noon til 2
Thursday class from 10 till 7 pm
Friday 3pm - close
Saturday 3pm - close
Sunday 3pm - close

So if I work about 28 hours a week, that would be 56 hour pay check. which rounds to about 896 a month from work. Plus I will get 881 from school a month, giving me about 1700 a month. Minus the 300 for gas, the 100 for food, and the 150 for my phone bill, then I will have 1150 a month.
I'm going to just save money this time. Just save save save.

I want to go to Minnesota before the year ends, just because I miss Missy.

Radiohead on the 27th... I gotta get that day off. I think I will though, if I ask for Tuesday/Wednesday and Thursday off every week.

Dammit. I am going to be so worn out these next few months.

I'm gonna go running, or at least attempt it.