Isolation

I really am starting to feel it. Understand it. Become it. It is consuming me. Yeah.

This totally strange and uncomfortable new feeling that I have, and the weird thing is that I only have my family and my best friends to blame. Well, not all my best friends. I only have one who is actually still treating me the same, which I love him for.

What is so wrong with my happiness? I mean, it is as if they would prefer me to continue my downward spiral into complete depression and eventual suicide. Yeah, I said it...erm, typed it.

Are we falling apart? Am I so blind? I had no idea, I really thought we were doing just fine. I have no idea. Maybe there is too much on your plate for this. I wouldn't be upset if you felt that way.

I'm nauseous. I can't breathe.

I'm sorry I am so insane. I'm sorry that one day I want to be normal then the next I freak out. I am trying to get better, but you really do make me happy. You must realize that when you found me I was at one of the lowest points in my life so far. \



I CAN'T FUCKING WRITE RIGHT NOW.