with each time I say something that was hidden in a dark place, you kiss it and make it okay.
it is like... all these fears and horrible things and evil things and scary things and... you just... it's not that I expected you to reject them completely... but you really do make me feel good and pretty... I must be healing... this healing process makes me so emotional.
its like, I feel so lame for getting weepy, but I feel like, when I do cry, it feels good because it is almost a release.
It is just hard for me sometimes, not in the bad way, but in a oh my gosh, this is so wonderful I think I might cry, way. Which can be embarrassing. Only because you say things or some of your actions are so great.. I just feel undeserving of them.
And it reminds me of some times in the beginning I felt that way too. Sometimes I just feel like you're too good for me. You're so damn smart. I don't know a lot of stuff. I could listen to you talk about directors and music all day... like, just lay in your lap and listen. I wish I knew some stuff though, too.
I don't know where we are going, but each day I like the direction we are going in more and more...
I really do want to put a picture on my school folder...
nightmares every night really sucks. thoughts resurfacing and situations/emotions I was hiding for years coming back in play really suck... but confronting them to make a better future doesn't.
I'm glad I am not so scared anymore.
You look so sexy all the time. you really do.
