well, you can't live without me.

But how do you want to live? With me? With me on the side? With me through emails?

the day this will work? the day when you wake up and realize without my love, without me and only me, nothing else matters. Isn't that what passion is? love? I want you to know that with me and only me you will be happy.

I know that love. that feeling. is it depleting with each day that goes by like this one today?

We didn't fight but you're still confusing me slightly.

my mom doesn't want me to go to san bam. I have 2 days to decide. I don't know what to do.

about anything.

yeah... you're really gone now. didn't think it would really happen...

Jewel - Foolish Games (TRADUCIDA ESPAÑOL)

personalized

I guess this is now my own private journal since no one is going to look on it anymore... but it is okay, I have a place to vent now.

the break up is actually finally over with, it feels really really fucking weird. Like, insanely weird. I mean, there was no other way around it though, I don't even know what it was anymore. I mean, besides a huge cluster fuck. I really hope that everything slows down though a lot more now. I think that time is going to be so helpful. I doubt we will come in contact ever again, I mean, she is great at disappearing, it is one thing she did mention.

Mrs. Bush passed away... I didn't think it would hurt this bad. I don't know how to feel besides absolute utter pain... I didn't even get to sa goodbye or anything like that..

fuck it I'm gonna call I don't know how to handle Mrs. Bush...

I hope you don't hate me and see what I did for what it was...

but I bet you're still mad or indifferent or whatever.

doesn't matter I guess.

I just hope I don't see you shopping with her. Or that we see each other... I have a good feeling you want to hit me or something...

I'm gonna be strong and one day you'll miss me... maybe... who knows.

should I give up? or should I just keep chasing pavements? even if it leads no where...

overdue?

you wanna let me go? you have to let me go? do as you must, I don't want to continue to ruin things for you. I hope one day you'll be happy and I know I will not be the reason.

I just have my hands tied with you and I don't know what else to do.

fuck me?

never in my life I thought you would say that to me.

since that is how you really feel, thanks.

I'll still never say it to you. I don't dislike you that much.

thanks. Don't expect me to come back, I don't come back when someone says "fuck you" to me.

this is like the 20th time we have done this. however, it is different this time. call me a child all you want, but you don't understand then. not one bit. and me trying to explain it over and over again was a waste of time apparently. we are 2 very different people. I am sorry that I will NEVER be who you want me to be for you. You couldn't do it now, I couldn't do it then, but now, I will NEVER be her. You've got your life ahead of you, I bet the next time I see you, you will have 'put a ring on it'. Maybe I will be single, who knows. But, I am not giving up, I have a few blind dates lined up so we shall see. Or at least I shall see. You think I am too much of a child to have this friendship with you, obviously I need to get better at hiding my feelings or, if anything, destroying them. Why do you hold on to me? I still looked at you as if one day we were going to be something again. You stopped. I could see it in your eyes. And if anything, years from now if you were in something, it'd be just like it was yesterday, and I would get crushed all over again. That is what you don't understand. And that is only the tip of this iceberg, dear.

but you are...

"What you mean I ain’t call you?
I hit you when I landed
I’m waiting in my hotel room
seems like we are arguing more and it’s getting less romantic
yeah, I think she’ll be able to tell soon
but I f-cked you right I will
I f-cked you right I will
I’ll f-ck you like no-one has ever ever made you feel
I mean it’s part of our relationships, amazing still
I might just put up with the arguing and stay for real
you looking mad, girl for goodness sakes
you with all those curves and me without no breaks
ooh, I’m willing to work it out however long it takes you
you feel like you miss those happy days well girl that makes two of us
Our timing is wrong
your friends always tying up every line on your phone
yeah but tell them b-tches that you’ll always be my missus
and the hardest part about the f-cking business is minding your own
uhh, and everytime I try and break it off
we just yell until we tired then I break you off
it’s useless all this fighting lets get past it now
even when I throw them deuces you just send it back around"

It's always been you.

"There must be something more to us than you and me

It must be tangled up some how, its destiny
I used to think the sum of one and one was two
But we add up to more me and you
When we are close together it’s so plain to see
Together we are better than we used to be
I don’t know how to say the things I’m thinking of
But this something more we're feeling must be love
I used to think the sum of one and one was two
But we add up to more me and you
I don’t know how to say the things I’m thinking of
But this something more we're feeling must be love"

"People know the truth, they may not like it, or want to know it, but-, but they always know.

Lie and you will lose her. "

... and you did.

come to think about it though, I bet you don't even give a shit.

love is about respect. you don't have any for me. love is wasted on me. I'm gaining on happiness and you'll see it... from a distance. have fun w/ your baby...

did you play that song for a reason?