sick. ill. sad. lonely. pathetic. need to meet new people. disbelief. maybe i should settle. drugs helped but didn't. can't stop. my mind won't stop. ignorance is bliss. eternal sunshine. please? no? one more time. better this time. you hate me. think i'm crazy. fuck. this was not what i wanted. too much. i just want to end this all. can't go on like this. but now you totally think i'm crazy. bet you pity me. fuck. typing this is bad, you'll read it. use it. i don't know anymore.