this is what it feels like... fucking hate it. felt something like this but this is a million times worse. I know it hurts you too, not saying it doesn't. I can't find distraction. I can't eat. Can't sleep. I want to take more just to pass time but it isn't a good idea. Everything reminds me of you. I need to find someone to take my attention away, but I just can't. It just feels wrong to me. you're smarter than me. better. stronger. I feel like a withered flower...